so called 7 deadly sins......

From facebook, I had read one of my friend post sound like this: “‎7 deadly sins: lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride ... omg i got more than half i guess…”
Some of the sins named in his post I know it very well, some of them I need to search through dictionary to know exactly the meaning. Shame on me…however, I still wanna share this with you all.
From the listed sins, the following table shows the explanation: (all from Longman Dictionary)




LUST:
This is a feeling that I think I owned very much. I always have a strong desire to have something in my life. I want to be happy, I want to life a very prosperous life where there are no worries and no faulty. However, this is a feeling listed as a sin. I am wondering. How sinful it is to have lust for happiness and prosperity….

Gluttony & Greed:
I think I have this as well sin because I seldom eat a lot but I will buy a lot of food and drinks. Usually I cannot finish them and then last destination of the food will be in the rubbish bin. I am not sure of why but I will buy all the food that I think I will eat. However, when I really want to start eating I will feel full looking at all those foods. It is large wastage. I know it very well but I cannot stop myself. This is what called greed. I am greedy for more foods and drinks. However I cannot finish them and throw them into the rubbish bin. This is pure greed not for power and money but is in sanitation.
I am pretty sure that I do not greed for power as I do not like to hold power in my ability. I feel very uneasy because those who has power in his or her ability will always need to make decision. I do not greed for money too. I never look money as everything in my life but it is part of the needs to survive. I never ask for more money as I do not think I need it. I can life a simple life as I wanted too. Do not need any extra money…

SLOTH
This is very true about me. I am very lazy. Too lazy till sometimes I keep on conflicting with the inner me. I do not know why but sometimes I really want to just lay down and do nothing for a few days, a few weeks and months and years…however, I cannot stand for the boredom too. Thus, I also do not know what I really want….

WRATH
I am a person that can be easily light up. A simple thing can make me furious and full of anger. A little pressure in life will make me see thing is fire. I seldom cool down when my anger had visited me. It takes times longer than a month for me to really relese all my anger. Or else I need to be alone in some place to find back the calamity in my life…or else most of my friend will get scold from me….bad bad me…

ENVY
I do have envy deep in myself. This feeling is always there for me. As I look on other people success I will not feel jealous but I really envy his or her successfulness. I hope I am he or she and stand there being awarded or being praised. I hoep that I am an working fellah so that I can owned my own house, my own car and other possessions when I look at those working adult. I used to had this feeling at a very young age of 10 I bet…

PRIDE
I do not like the feeling of pride. Whenever I had something to be proud of, I will keep it so that no people know about it. I do not like people to know about my success because I feel ashamed. Most of them will think that I am just showing off with pride. So I think I do not really have the pride. Thus, not long ago I had lost myself. I do not know what is the point I struggle for my study and other stuuf because I do not really like the feeling of pride….

Actually, the point I share this seven sins is not tho show to you guys that the sins and the effect of having these kind of feeling. I just want to point out that, the so said sins actually is very depend on how the community look at the moral values nowadays. It is not very acceptable to stay together in ahouse before marriage in eastern country but it is well accepted in western country. This is most probably the same when it comes to sin. How can we determine whether the act we had done is a sin or not is very much depend on how the community look on the action. For example is gluttony. Most of friend said that I am wasting my money for the food and they seem to not accept the way I buy my food. Well, I think that it is okie as I think I can really finished the food. However if we are full and we still force ourselves to finished up the food is also wrong. We are making our body to suffer later.
An action is said to be sin or not is very much depend on how you feel and think when you do the action and not what other people said about your act. This seems to be very self centered and I admit it that I am a person that very self centered and I do not really care about what other people said about me. For me, they just can see the physical me and never the inner me. However, I do not mean that we can be that self centered till kill other people is correct. Be rational and be strong on what you believe in. just let the community busy with their so called moral values and civics. The most important is still how you think about your act….

What is supposedly to happened to the world in the future?

Recently the new movie of Resident Evil 4 had being on screen. I had watched it and totally amazed and scared by the sudden highly sounded effect. Nevertheless, the story line was quite interesting. It talks about how the little group of tiny mankind survived through the man-made-apocalypse. They had being very determinant and know exactly that they want to survive through the tragic. It is supposedly that the determination of mankind will result in something good for its own civilization. However, the situation doesn’t seem to be like this.
Just like in the movie, the mankind determination is far beyond their expectation. There are some of the mankind that are very determine to do something even though he or she knows the price that he or she need to give off. Of course this kind of people is too intelligent and capable to paying the price for their determination. What happened next is the suffering of the other mankind that had nothing to do with it. It happened to be like this. As we can seen from the movie, there are certain people that still strive to continue his project and making others to pay for its consequences. They knew that their determination will harm and kill others but they do not seem to care much about it. The result of their determination is matter all the way.
Well, the movie is not much I am going to talk about. It is mankind determination that I am going to talk about. Well, I bet all of us had heard the incident where a very helpless mother able to raise up a car to save her child. I am not sure where and when this incident had happened but I am pretty sure that this had happened before. This is the good part of mankind determination. It is to save others lives. Or maybe I can say that the mother is pretty lucky.
I bet if the fellah under the car is not her child I do not think that she will be able to raise the car. Shall I say that if it was not her child, I do not think that she will bother to touch the car anyways? Well, she does not has the determination to save the fellah under the car if that fellah is not her child.
Actually, God had given us enough to survive through as the highest ranking organism in the world. One of it is our determination. When we are determined enough we are able to survive. Not just that we are able to bring other together with us and walk through our life time. There are times when an individual give up their determination and walk through their life time like a living corpse. There are some out there. Although they are very successful in life but they feel just like a living dead corpse. Their determination to live for another day had reached the zero line.
We find our determination in all ways. Doesn’t matter whether it comes from an incident or it comes from someone. All it matter is how are we going to deal with our determination. Most of the people are saying that the end of the world is coming. I had heard that for almost 13 years. It is still not happening but people are making it real. Isn’t it amazing? Mankinds are so determine that one day apocalypse will emerge and everything will be gone. They even predicted how the end of the world is going to happen. This situation is as if we are begging and hoping to die and extinct from the world very soon. This is funny……
Well, if we are that determinant to die, there is no point you are breathing at this moment. If you are hoping for the end of the world, then there is no point spending for your food. Why don’t you just lay down and close your eyes and just sleep through your life time.
It is true that in most religious they believe that one day Dooms day will come and all of us will be dead and being judged. We got to know that Dooms day is arriving so that we can live the best of the best in our everydays life. No doubt, we must be very determinant. All of us know that the Mother Nature is terribly sick but not aggressive steps were taken to heal her. So, are we determining enough to survive or determine enough to welcome the Dooms day? Think about it…..

Something very impressive my mom said this holiday…

This season greeting, I had spent the most time at home with my family. After all, we had being travelling from the day I am home until the day they sent me back to college. It is fascinating and impressive but at the same time tiring and physically suffered. I remember very well that in one of the day trip my mom had said this in the car: well, after so many years of hard works, now I am just an old hen without much fur on my body.
Well, I was so deeply touched by her words. Suddenly, I had so much to feel about my mom. Actually her phrase was made after my dad said that they both (my parents) seldom go for vacation if there is no special event. My mom felt that her existence is priceless. Nevertheless, she felt that her husband will just bring her to vacation if the children are home. That is why she felt that she is a hen without much fur on her body. After all the hard works in supporting the four little chicks (me and my siblings) to be adult, her existence is no longer much important to the cock (my dad).
This is my parents conversation in the car that day…I remember it very well…
Dad: Haiya, you aren’t that priceless la. I also got bring you walk here and there ma
Mom: Yes lorh….if your son did not come back, I was nowhere to go. You will always said that it is boring to face you everywhere.
Dad: You said it is hot and humid put there. So, better watch movie at home.
Mom: hmm…after you said that you are boring to see my face, what else can I said??? Last time, when all of them (me and my siblings) are still kids, you will always bring us here and there. Now I know why…it is because I can help you to guard the kids and take care of them. It is like a hen with the chicks around her. Now, when all the chicks are grown up, the cock no longer need the hen to take care of the chick and can simply go for a walk without the hen…
All of us were silent in the car and have a small smile on our face. The statement is quiet funny and yet it is quiet true I bet. When we used to be kids, mom will always be by our side. It doesn’t matter what the event is and what the problem is. She is always there for the kids. Just like the chicks and the hen. Have you ever question whether it is the chicks that follow the hen or the hen that follow her chicks. I can tell you the answer that the hen is always following the chicks. You can ask the Kampung people. They knew that the best was to capture the hen is just simply trap one of the little chick in the barn. The hen will turn round and round the barn with other chicks.
It is the same in our daily life. Mom will never leave their children. However, when the children had grown up to be an adult, it is not necessary that they will always be there for the mother. This is not a rules or a course that must be followed but it is the reality that most of us is practicing.
When we were kid, whenever we are sick, our mom will be the one which is most worried. Never to forget about our dad as well. However, a mom effort does more than dad. She will find the correct medicine and the best physician to heal us. This is not that obvious in a normal kid life. You can see it in the pediatric department of most of the hospital. Most of the mother that has a child administer in this department is actually a half professional nurse. They will know when and what medicine the patient should take. When is the time to take the temperature, when is the time for blood test and other things that a nurse will do. Mom is not just doing it but they can be doubling more professional that a nurse can be.
Every mom thinks that their children deserve anything that available in their ability. I had seen a mother with an Down syndrome son. I bet her son is around his twenties. She brings her Down syndrome son to a five-star-hotel for swimming in the swimming pool there. She doesn’t care what other people will think about her son. I can see from this mother that she always think that her son deserve everything that a normal kid can have. Her face is very determinant and she knew that her son has nothing much different from other kids. Out of a sudden, I feel so touched. I think back what my mom had did for me. It is actually the same. The entire mother in this world is just the same. Sacrificing for their kids but not asking anything back.
However, when the kid grown up. The situation will be a little bit different. The child that the mother sacrifices for is not the mother or the father of another kid. He or she learns to sacrifice for his or her son and slowly forgetting the one that had sacrifice for them previously. At this moment, the mother (which is now grandmother) will need someone in return as a company. Who will that be? The answer will be her husband.
After all these years of bringing up the children, when they are all adult, the best companion will never be you r children but it is your wife or your husband. My mom will always told me that, one day me and my siblings will have our own life and family but not her or her husband that come into concern. When I first heard that I thought my mom was just playing some tricks so that next time we will look after her. But now I found out that this is very true. She knows that very well. The mom that I used to think is just an simple woman that just know how to cook at home actually had a wisdom which is far more better than me who is in university. She just finished her primary school.
After all, now is her best time. Like she said, it is actually the time for her and her husband to honeymoon and did the things and go the place that they long for. As the son of my parents, all I hope is that they will be happily ever after.

P/S: no one will know when is his or her time to leave this world. Thus, it is best to spent all the precious time available with our beloved one as much as possible because they are gone they really gne. Not just the person that is gone but all the going to be sweet memories will not happened….

Memories - worth to keep?

memories can be bitter can be sweet....can be sour can be tasteless...to keep memories meaning to keep some certain feeling to ourselves...it is the feeling that created when we were together with others...it is the feeling when we look at something...the feeling does feel very good at the moment we had found it...but the feeling is not necessary to feel good when we recall it back...usually during recalling tyme...we will have other feeling mixed up together...

yu ffel pain and teribly sad when yu look at your newly born abay...yu swear to yourself..."i am not going to give birth anymore..." a few years later..."owh...i am pregnant again..." well, during that few years...the feeling of sad and pain when delivering come and go...yu feel it is teribly pain...but yu feel enjoyable...ahaks...

at the very moment...of course the feeling for certain memories is very strong...but when we calm down...or after some times...the feeling for that certain memories will be changed or altered...

so...my questions is...worth to keep memories that will not maintain its original feeling?

haha...i do not know...but i like to forget all the momories and incident i had seen today....to start a new tomolo...but i just never make it...ahahahahah....

Love the feeling and not really the person....

There are a few quotes which is very important to us. The very first I knew is the quote: money is everything. As I grown up, I had realized that money is not everything but without money you can do nothing. This had been so true in my life. Money really not everything but sometimes when I had come to a state where I lack of money, I realize that without money, I cannot do anything. Do you think you can survive in today’s community without a cent in your pocket? Begging for food or die of hunger? I think you have your own answer. Malaysia is the same in terms of reality; nothing much different from other developing country or moral – depleting country.
Well, when it comes to love. I had got myself to know that love is a need for everyone but not all of us are able to have it. Sometimes, when I saw a couple holding hand, I use to think: how long will they be able to hold their hands together that tightly? I never believe in true love because I know that no matter how much you love a person, the feeling will soon deplete and you will need to find another person to love with. However, recent incident had made a very different view for me.
When a couple holds their hands together, it is very dependent on each of the couple to hold it. My second sister had got married a few weeks ago. I saw her picture with her husband. At that moment, I thought to myself that how long can she be in the happily ever after state as I can seen on her face. I had being very negative on that all these while. However, when it comes to me, I am nothing much different from my second sister.
When we are in love or we hold the hand of the person that we think we can rely on for the rest of your life, we had gambled our destiny on that person. At the same time, he or she that we relied on also gambled his or her destiny on us. Well, this gambling is a large bet. Once you lose, you lost most of your everything. Your family, your happiness and of course your tiny fracture of your life. Maybe I am wrong; a large fragment of your life and memories will be destroyed by the loosing of this gambling. If you think you had win the gambling and you can have your price of happily ever after, I can ensure you that you are just day dreaming. This is because love between two people is very fracture. It can build u easily and it can break down double speed as it builds up.
Seems to give up in love actually but there is another view in love. Love between two people is very fragile. This is very true as you can see in a marriage couple with children. They can divorce after a night of quarrel or maybe they can break up due to a slippage in a dinner night. However, the love in each of the couple is very strong. Although they had divorce, the feeling in each of them for the other is still very deep and lovely. This might be due to the feeling of existence for the time that they had been together. We had used to the existence of that person in our lives. Nevertheless, we do not really want him or her to be out of sight, out of mind. This is rarely happened. Believe it or not, when a couple divorce, they sit, they eat, they drink or even they sleep…the memories of them being together always pop up in their mind. Some called this as memories but I call this as a feeling of loss.
At the moment we had bonded up with a person, we had started to accumulate the memories in our memories. We had gather all the feelings, things, mood, whether and all those happening things, dead or living materials into our memories. At that moment, the person that we love is the person that we hold his or her hand. However, after sometimes we are no longer love that person we hold our hand with. Instead, we love the feeling of his existence beside us. We love it when he or she beside us when we had dinner. We love it when he or she beside us when we watch movie. We love it when he or she is beside us when we sleep. The feeling of his or her existence had already taken a very firm place in our heart and this place is hardly can be replace by other. There is an acceptance for this feeling among those Casanova… dun be mistaken, the male or female whore sometime had a even greater deeper love feeling than a highly status woman or man…
I had fallen in love with this particular person (#) and we had broken up after being together for 2 years. After the cool period of breaking down, I had found out the feeling I had written above. I do not know whether I love # anymore or not but all I know is that I love the feeling of # existence in my life…to #, I really hope that we can be together for the rest of our lives. Although I knew that it is some sort impossible for you, but I really hope that day will come…

Love the feeling and not really the person....

There are a few quotes which is very important to us. The very first I knew is the quote: money is everything. As I grown up, I had realized that money is not everything but without money you can do nothing. This had been so true in my life. Money really not everything but sometimes when I had come to a state where I lack of money, I realize that without money, I cannot do anything. Do you think you can survive in today’s community without a cent in your pocket? Begging for food or die of hunger? I think you have your own answer. Malaysia is the same in terms of reality; nothing much different from other developing country or moral – depleting country.
Well, when it comes to love. I had got myself to know that love is a need for everyone but not all of us are able to have it. Sometimes, when I saw a couple holding hand, I use to think: how long will they be able to hold their hands together that tightly? I never believe in true love because I know that no matter how much you love a person, the feeling will soon deplete and you will need to find another person to love with. However, recent incident had made a very different view for me.
When a couple holds their hands together, it is very dependent on each of the couple to hold it. My second sister had got married a few weeks ago. I saw her picture with her husband. At that moment, I thought to myself that how long can she be in the happily ever after state as I can seen on her face. I had being very negative on that all these while. However, when it comes to me, I am nothing much different from my second sister.
When we are in love or we hold the hand of the person that we think we can rely on for the rest of your life, we had gambled our destiny on that person. At the same time, he or she that we relied on also gambled his or her destiny on us. Well, this gambling is a large bet. Once you lose, you lost most of your everything. Your family, your happiness and of course your tiny fracture of your life. Maybe I am wrong; a large fragment of your life and memories will be destroyed by the loosing of this gambling. If you think you had win the gambling and you can have your price of happily ever after, I can ensure you that you are just day dreaming. This is because love between two people is very fracture. It can build u easily and it can break down double speed as it builds up.
Seems to give up in love actually but there is another view in love. Love between two people is very fragile. This is very true as you can see in a marriage couple with children. They can divorce after a night of quarrel or maybe they can break up due to a slippage in a dinner night. However, the love in each of the couple is very strong. Although they had divorce, the feeling in each of them for the other is still very deep and lovely. This might be due to the feeling of existence for the time that they had been together. We had used to the existence of that person in our lives. Nevertheless, we do not really want him or her to be out of sight, out of mind. This is rarely happened. Believe it or not, when a couple divorce, they sit, they eat, they drink or even they sleep…the memories of them being together always pop up in their mind. Some called this as memories but I call this as a feeling of loss.
At the moment we had bonded up with a person, we had started to accumulate the memories in our memories. We had gather all the feelings, things, mood, whether and all those happening things, dead or living materials into our memories. At that moment, the person that we love is the person that we hold his or her hand. However, after sometimes we are no longer love that person we hold our hand with. Instead, we love the feeling of his existence beside us. We love it when he or she beside us when we had dinner. We love it when he or she beside us when we watch movie. We love it when he or she is beside us when we sleep. The feeling of his or her existence had already taken a very firm place in our heart and this place is hardly can be replace by other. There is an acceptance for this feeling among those Casanova… dun be mistaken, the male or female whore sometime had a even greater deeper love feeling than a highly status woman or man…
I had fallen in love with this particular person (#) and we had broken up after being together for 2 years. After the cool period of breaking down, I had found out the feeling I had written above. I do not know whether I love # anymore or not but all I know is that I love the feeling of # existence in my life…to #, I really hope that we can be together for the rest of our lives. Although I knew that it is some sort impossible for you, but I really hope that day will come…

Antara mencari dan menemui….

Hidup kita yang dikatakan singkat ini Nampak macam tidak singkat tapi pada masa yang sama juga merupakan satu tempoh yang panjang…tiada saper – saper yang dapat menentukan sama ada hidup adalah panjang atau pendek. Ramai juga yang tidak pernah pikirkan persoalan ini juga sebab bagi mereka memikirkan adalah satu pembaziran tenaga. Semua ini adalah betul apabila seseorang individu itu belum menemui kehidupan di mana dier tidak perlu mencari dan menunggu untuk menemui apa yang diingini.
Sering kali dalam hidup, kita akan mencari dan mengusahakan sesuatu untuk menhiasi hidup kita. Tidak lain tidak bukan, secara umumnya umat manusia sentiasa mencari impiam, harapan dan juga keinginan…selagi mereka tidak menemuinya, mereka akan mencari dan mencari. Namun apabila mereka dah menemui, perkara itu tidak semestinyer alaah sesuatu yang mengembirakan. Hal ini kerana menemui apa yang dicarikan selama ini mungkin akan memberikan nokhtah titik kepada makna kehidupan kelak.
Ada juga sesetengah pihak yang akan bergembira selepas menemui perkara yang ingin dicarikan. Namun sejauh mana kegembiraan itu akan membawa individu itu dan kegembiraan itu akan bertahan sementara atau akan berkekalan. Semestinya jawa[annya adalah sementara. Tiada perkara yang akan berkekalan di dunia ini.
Apbila kita mencari sesuatu, kita akan menentukan apa yang kami ingin temui nanti…namun setiap pencarian itu tidak semestinya menjamin kita akan menemui apa yang kami inginkan. Kadang kala, walaupon tidak menjumpai apa yang kami ingin temui, kita sebenarnya menemui perkara lain yang tidak didugakan. Jadi, apakah maknanya pencarian sedangkan perkara yang ingin dicari tidak semestinya adalah perkara yang akan dan ingin ditemui….
Dalam persoalan cinta, kita sering kali ingin mencari jodoh yang benar…ingin menemui takdir yang sebenar…ingin menjumpai orang yang kami benar – benar cintai. Namun selepas menemuinya, kita akan bergembira tetapi tidak akan berpanjangan. Cinta sejati yang dianggap telah ditemui itu sebenarnya tidak memberikan jaminan sepanjang umur. Kadang kala, dalam mencari pasangan yang sejati dan takdir yang sepatutnya, kita akan menemui diri kita yang berlainan dan mencarikan pasangan yang berlainan…jadi apakah maknanya nanti sekiranya pasangan ideal itu sudah ditemui….