Monday, December 21, 2009

How Many Children Should I have???

During dinner just now, me and a few of my pals were discussing how many children shall we have in the future...Some of them said that they just want one girl,some said she does not want any boys...and a few others said they want as many as possible...

As for me, when i think about this, i felt it is very funny...I do not deny that the modern technology will allow us to determine whether we can have a baby boy or a baby girl...However, it is not still not really accepted by all of the religion in this world. This is because having a baby is actually a girt from the God, no one can actually determine how many children shall we have or either the baby should be male or female. Everything is being set by the God and we just need to carry out our responsibility...

I think of my neighbour suddenly, she has 8 daughther and 1 son. This actually is due to her aim to have a baby boy. After giving birth to eight daughter, then only she gave birth to a baby boy. Was this what the God set up for her or did she the one determine it??? I am not sure about it...

However, as for those who read this blog, the message i wanna convey is that giving birth is a natural process...let the natural process go on the natural pathway...never be the determiner as long as you are still the creation of God...

(chewah...macam pendeta lar pulak...haha....)

Sunday, December 20, 2009

There Is Only Two Ways...

No matter when, where, what and how..we are abl to make a new friends. Moreoer, with the modern technologies such as messengers, emails, facebook and so on. We might befriended to another individual by just click on the mouse or pressing the keypad on the computer.

It is getting easier and easier to know and meet up with other people. There are multiple ways to hook up with other fellow as well. This have not count as well the ways to meet people in daily life, manually...However, there are only two ways to say goodbye to our so call friend.

A friendship, doesn't matter how much effort had used to build up will be broken easily when the timing is correct. There is only two ways to end it. One of it is by ending with a fight or end with a peaceful line. Usually or mostly of the friendship will end up with a fight.

This usually happen in my life. It is just like a process which i must face yearly. Maybe it is because towards the end of the year. I started to look back on my life this year. There are too many things happened and most of it is not controlled by myself.

There are people which is very selfish in a relationship, like i do. They do not really want any interference in the relationship going on in his / her life. She or he will always want everything planned as his / her ways. Usually this kind of people (more or less like me) will end up most of his or her relationship with a fight.

There is nothing i can do. I bet anyone in this world need to bare in their mind that things will change. Nothing in this world will remain static. If really things in this world remain static, then the sun and the moon we see will give us the same brightness. There are as well people requested for a static relationship. A static relationship is very stable but nothing is contained in it. Thus, this kind of relationship will end up with a fight.

There is another situation where friendship end up peacefully. A forced relationship. This usually occur among classmate and housemate or roommate. no matter how fierce is the fight, bot parties will remain silent until the benefits for both parties had reach the limit and hey will left each other without any word. This kind of ending will end peacefully but actually it is not suppose to end...because it never started at all. It is just a illusion of a starting. Funny but i feel it is so true in my life now.

This year, two of my friendship broke. One brke up with a fight another broke up silently or peacefully...in other word...it just seems like the friendship never started before..

so...i bet next year...none of this will ever happen again because i will stop finding friends because i know my only true friends is just a few and he best friend i had so far is still myself...most of the friendship i have is just giving me laughter and joy but not true hapiness....

Friends...firends....friends...(it is the frys that ends up....)

it is so lame but it is true...

Many people had said that when it come to a diverged road and we have to choose one, we will always said it is the road not taken...Recently, i had went to a camping site, our last activities was rafting. We were brought 20km away from our camp site and we were requested to raft back to the jetty near our camp site. Throughout my my rafting journey with my 8 other group members, we had met a lots of corners and turns. There are three particular turns that take a deep memories in my heart. The corner looks like a diverging stream one is to the lefet and the other is to the right.

Since our group was the first or the leading group, we were some sort like need to make the decision. After a few seconds of discussion, we round up and decide to take right. However, as we raft nearer to the diverging road, we started to laughed. It was not a diverging stream but just a big turn. There is just one stream...We met this situation three times but as a fast learner, during the second one we did not make any fast decision but wait until we almost reach the junction which once again make the fool of our eyes.

When we almost reach to the jetty, the stream is getting faster and stronger. At that moment, there are a few instructor gave us a few instructions. One of them requested us to stop by the jetty while the other order us to stop by a small island in the middle of the river. At that moment we were so confused. We do not really know which way to go. Luckily one of the instructor voice was laud enough for us to decide we need to raft to the right side. Thus, we reached safely.

When we landed, the instructors scolded us for not obeying his instruction and so on. He said that if we are not able to make the right turn just not at the correct timing, we will meet the rocky area and our raft will be broken and all of the members on the raft will flow down the stream to the other places. Death maybe awaiting at the end of the stream. As part of the learner, all of us just take it for granted but i was not that satisfied.

It is true that the instructor was full with experience and knowledge in rafting. However, it also does not mean that what is being said about the river is always true.Who knows that we might survive at the end of the stream and our raft is still in proper condition even passing through the rocky area. If we really not able to make that right turn, i think we might be able to create another story rather than the one told by the instructor.



However,no matter how much i feel unsatisfied...it is always the road not taken. Our raft has chosen to make a right turn and not the left turn. Once the raft had make the turn, it already decided the next event that is the internal conflict about the other decision. This phenomenon actually always happen in our lives. Daily we will always look back at the point where we make decision and have the internal conflict about the ending if the other choices were take. However, people will always said that, you had already choosen this path and you must continue it until the end. it doesnt matter how the other road that you did not take will lead you to but what you are having and facing not is most important for your survival.

Sometimes, the proverbs "it is always the road not taken" seems very lame and as an excuse for people who regret over the decision they made. However, no matter how lame it was, the reality always prove that the proverbs is always true...

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Blurr Vision in The Day, Clear Vision in The Night - Just An Illusion

Early in this morning, with the vision of just awoke...I cannot really see clearly what is on the floor...it doesn't matter anyway so far but not today. I had accidentally step on my spectacles. Well, my spectacles was out of shape and it needs a little adjustment.

Once i had adjusted it, i wore it back and found out that one of the lens has many scratches. Once i wore it, i just saw some blur white spot. It really make me feel uncomfortable. However, there is nothing much i can do accept to adapt to it.

When it come to night, i found that the blurr spot was no longer there. At first i thought that the scratches was just some dirt and now it had gone. I was actually wrong. The scratches actually do not vanished, it is just that the night situation that do not allow a clear vision.

Out of nowhere, i had suddenly thought to myself that sometimes life is like that as well. There are times where we will always see other people fault but we just seldom seen our own weakness on our dark side. Everything seem perfect and smart like the dark colour of the night. However, it is just a camouflage, illusion adn something that is not rigid to be true. It is also just a believe and over - confident.

Although we will always said that, i was a human and i had my own weakness. It is true that we know that we had weakness but we seldom really admit it, not until something bad happen or a third parties sound out our weaknesses.

How shame it is for us as part of the highest and most complex organism on Earth but we just never admit or learn from our weakness by ourselves. Unlike in the wild, most animals need to really know their weakness and try their very best to find a solution to solve their weakness. For example, the giraffe only sleeps two hour in every 24 hours and eah individual will take turn to sleep so that they can look after each other and prevent predators.

If it was for us, i dun think we can really do so...we tend to think that we are safe and sleep through the peaceful night...however, we should bare in mind that we are the same like the other organism that we are weak as well and must always beware of our environment....


It think it is just a piece of rubbish...but i really feel grateful for those who read part or the whole rubbish i wrote...thanks....